So one of the sensitive issues for me after David's birth, was what to do with my milk. I was full term. So there was no question that it would come in.
Breastfeeding was something I wanted so desperately to do with David. I had read books, articles, tons of articles, talked to some fabulous bloggers. I had ordered & received a pump so I would be prepared to go back to work. I was pro mama and pro breastfèeding for all the wonderful benefits for baby.
So then I have no baby to feed, and then , this story had been flying around the Internet about a courageous Teen Mother , who had given her child up for adoption. She also was educated during her pregnancy about the benefits of breastmilk. She made the decision to pump her milk after placing the child for adoption. She pumped and shipped the milk to the family.
I have read stories about women who have lost their child, who pumped and donated to milk banks. If you had mentioned this 2 years ago, I would have so been that lady. Now that I am in the position to pump for someone else, I just can't. Physically I am sure I could have. Mentally I couldn't. I am sorry to any of you adoptive mama's who rely on milk banks, or anyone else that might rely on them. I am just not emotionally strong enough to do it.
I will just suffer silently with ice packs in my sports bra.
