Double one

Roses are red, violets are blue.

We knew we are pregnant, but guess what?

There are 2 !!

Twice the blessings
Twice the fun
Two little miracles
Instead of one!

We prayed for one, but blessed with two.

To say we are shocked!!

I saw the 2 sacs, and 2 heartbeats on ultrasound today. All this after seeing my ob earlier in the day, who said, all looks great, I'll see you at week 12.   I wrote him an email when I left the ultrasound, and said, I think their might be a change of plans.

I guess the plan is to go back in 2 weeks for another ultrasound.

Major anxiety

So many things today have been causing me to be overly anxious. 

Like 1) dr appt 

Where I got to see this little person again

Who is by the way is doing fantastic. 

2) staff at dr office. Less than pleasant experience today.  A) they somehow booked but didn't book my next appt. I was very ticked off. It took a lot of planning to get my appt, so that I can have everyone in the car and ready to leave on a sisters + kids weekend when my appt is. So we don't have to spend an extra 2 hours in the car . Now all foiled  cuz of someone in scheduling who doesn't know how to use the computer. 

My doctor today asked why I'm so on edge , my bp high when I visit. I told him certain people events In his front office trigger it. 

3) I am supposed to start PIO shots. BUT someone foiled that too. Specialists office told me they started the paperwork 6 weeks ago. Said it takes a long time for approval. Dr told me to check on it today , good thing I did, cuz no one had started it . So who knows when I will get them. Nurse coordinator in specialist office is apparently out (medical) so they are blaming her. 

Not liking the finger pointing. 

4) huge project at work consuming 12 -14 hours of my days. 

5) today is a sad anniversary, and I have been on edge for the last couple if days leading up to today. Something tragic happened to an (ex) BIL on this day 3 years ago. Which left my niece without a daddy. And her mom without a friend. 3 years ago the night before the tragedy happened I had a very vivid dream and the BIL was in it (not a good dream) to wake up in the morning to find out that pretty much my dream happened. 

I am so looking forward to vacation in 6 days !!!

What makes go around #3 hard

This the third time I'm pregnant. Not everything is "new" to me. Yet, some things are uncharted territory. 

*** disclaimer** not complaining. 

I still have not told any IRL people. Surprise!!  ( not ) 

I don't feel like I have a baby bump, but yet none of my pants fit. I've been living in elastic waisted skirts. 

Because of my infection, I was advised not to have relations with my husband. I am having a rough time with this. I feel like we should be having the time of our life, no waits, no pressure, nothing is timed, nothing is waiting for a stick to turn a color. Yet we have to act like kids in high school again. I finally am infection free this week. Not knowing what causes it is a big unknown for me. My doctor. & the specialist both are leaning towards infection as the cause of my last loss. So staying infection free is a priority. . . Need to review SPICE. 

Starting to get restless during the night. I was up for 2 hours last night. Yet tired in the morning. 

Still don't feel like cooking, nor eating for that matter. My favorites like pizza aren't helping me out this time either. 

Planning for 5/6 days away in a week and a half this is not helping. No inclination to go shopping. No cravings for anything. Well yesterday cheesecake.( that was a fluke) . Anyone know if it's okay to eat foods that are raw. I'm not talking veggies. At our farmers market is an awesome vendor who sells raw treats, vegan, gluten free etc. like salsa, raw brownies, key line pie made with Avacado. Do you think it's safe? I don't have an appt til Thursday to ask. I love this stuff but have been avoiding also because of it possibly containing bacteria, cuz it's not heated. 

That's all for now from my crazy preggo brain.