My husband & I were married 7 years ago, after 5 months being married, we started seeing a OBGYN who was NaPro trained. Our initial concerns were, really long cycles, like 40-50 days, and hey we were newly married, we were engaging in lots of honeymoon action, but yet there were no positive pregnancy tests arriving. She moved out of state after 2 visits with her, which was like 5 months. The only thing we learned from her, was I didn't ovulate on my own & I had PCOS. So we were befuddled & spent more time trying and being ignorant that there was an infertility issue. After about another year, we started the search again for a new doctor.
We found a pro-life OBGYN, who we are still with, Dr. G! Trusting that highly respected doctor #1 did a lot of blood work ups (her office, wouldn't release any files) we started on Clomid and he gave me a blank paper chart to keep track of my cycles. So after a month, we went back & he was confused and I was confused as to what he wanted on the chart? He 'respects' all forms of NFP, but didn't really specifiy what he wanted on the chart. So the only thing I had done was write in my temps, which was what I was taught in Sympto-thermal classes. So we schedule an appointment for the next month & he says. I want you to watch & record your cervical mucus. Hmmmm. Okay! So the next month I come in, with a bunch of scribbles, and much about nothing. I said there really isn't anything. So this goes on for a couple more months, he wants DH to get a SA to determine if there are any underlying issues with him, that we may not know about. After all that comes back, we're at 8 months into this with him & still not pregnant. By now I have gained a few pounds & he recommends we spend some time getting healthy. So we take about a year off & lose the weight & work on our overall health.
During infertility week in 2010 I discover a great blogger.(TCIE) I start following. I get intrigued by all this NaPro lingo. I start researching Creighton instructors. Nothing close to me! I find someone about 1 1/2 hours away from me, who is in training, in training means, she can only do in person meetings. She feels so bad for telling me that I would have to drive to her every other week for the first chart. We do this, because we know that it's the only way we can get in to see a NaPro doc, who by the way, is 3 1/2 hours away. So we get our 2 cycles of charting in ( which takes 3 1/2 months because of my wonky cycles). We contact the NaPro doctor and find out he is having surgery & will be not available to see patients for 2-3 months. Huge stab to the gut, but we take it in stride & make the appointment in May 2011. The good thing about this appoinment we had all our labs, done the month before so we had real stuff to talk about!. We get the "plan" given to us. We started using NaPro protocols finally which included meds (Femara, Prometrium) vitamins/OTC (B6, Mucinex, Fish Oil, PreNatals, D3) Diet ( no Dairy, Wheat, Sugar). We find out 4 months later that we are pregnant! WOW!.
Not included in our "plan" was a missed miscarriage at 14 weeks, we named our son Samuel(Sammy). The one lesson we learned with Sammy was that I could get pregnant, which I hadn't been able to do for the past 6 years. I went back on the "plan" and conceived about 6 months later. I found out we were having twins, only to find out at our first ultrasound that one passed at 8 weeks. I seemed to be having a normal pregnancy, but after our loss of Sammy, we were extra cautious, and kept our news to primarily ourselves. At 18 weeks we found out we were having a boy (Andrew), we also started birthing classes at this time and told our families. Sadly at 21 weeks, Andrew decided to arrive a wee bit too early. Andrew's Birth story.
After our loss, we were asked to abstain for 6 weeks, we await test results to come back on Andrew & I, and then meet with our doctor(s) to discuss the new "plan".
Showing posts with label Sammy. Show all posts
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Friday, November 1, 2013
Saturday, October 12, 2013
10 days
I have survived 10 days.
Friday, I had a follow up w/ my doc. He is very sweet. He started & ended with a hug.
I was lucky enough to get some more "infection" related meds. Can you bet how thrilled I am.
He also prescribed me something for anxiety. Hubs & I had a long talk when I got home. He wasn't thrilled that I got the script filled, but I told him I would let him keep the pills, & if we both decided I needed them, then WE could decide together. He has fears/known too many people getting addicted to them. .. The other nice part of my appointment, I cleared my conscience. I told him one of the things dragging on my heart, was guilt. Guilt for not knowing, did I do all in my power to avoid the "negative" outcome. He assured me that it was in God's hands, and had I been in his office & my water broke the way it did, there would have been nothing he could have done to save Drew. We didn't get to talk about any of the test results, because not everything is back, so we meet with him in 4 weeks. I told him I didn't feel comfortable of talking about a "next time" cuz I just was too hurt & didn't know if I could endure that again. By the end of the appointment, I was open to discussing "next time" he just has that way of putting me at ease. We did talk a little how about a next time would go. ( meaning - a LOT - more appointments.) More bloodwork & more ultrasounds, progesterone support, circlage, etc. ( unless the bloodwork after losing Drew, shows something major) after my miscarriage, the tests showed nothing.......Ok, I'm done speculating what's going on..
Today Hubs & I worked together all day.. No crying all day! It's a yearly appointment, that had to be kept. I told him I think I can get thru the first day back to "my" work if he comes with me.. ( which can't happen )
Today is also the "anniversary" of us finding out we were pregnant w/ Sammy.. it's all a little too close to losing Drew.
Friday, I had a follow up w/ my doc. He is very sweet. He started & ended with a hug.
I was lucky enough to get some more "infection" related meds. Can you bet how thrilled I am.
He also prescribed me something for anxiety. Hubs & I had a long talk when I got home. He wasn't thrilled that I got the script filled, but I told him I would let him keep the pills, & if we both decided I needed them, then WE could decide together. He has fears/known too many people getting addicted to them. .. The other nice part of my appointment, I cleared my conscience. I told him one of the things dragging on my heart, was guilt. Guilt for not knowing, did I do all in my power to avoid the "negative" outcome. He assured me that it was in God's hands, and had I been in his office & my water broke the way it did, there would have been nothing he could have done to save Drew. We didn't get to talk about any of the test results, because not everything is back, so we meet with him in 4 weeks. I told him I didn't feel comfortable of talking about a "next time" cuz I just was too hurt & didn't know if I could endure that again. By the end of the appointment, I was open to discussing "next time" he just has that way of putting me at ease. We did talk a little how about a next time would go. ( meaning - a LOT - more appointments.) More bloodwork & more ultrasounds, progesterone support, circlage, etc. ( unless the bloodwork after losing Drew, shows something major) after my miscarriage, the tests showed nothing.......Ok, I'm done speculating what's going on..
Today Hubs & I worked together all day.. No crying all day! It's a yearly appointment, that had to be kept. I told him I think I can get thru the first day back to "my" work if he comes with me.. ( which can't happen )
Today is also the "anniversary" of us finding out we were pregnant w/ Sammy.. it's all a little too close to losing Drew.
Thursday, October 3, 2013
Thank you for your prayers & update on last 48 hours
Let me start by saying Thank you to everyone for their prayers.
Our little Andrew was born(still) last night at 11:01PM he is now in heaven with his brother Samuel & his grandpa watching over them. Andrew was only 21 weeks. he measured 11" long and looked perfect. He looked just like we saw him in our ultrasound pictures just 2 short weeks ago.
Going back 48 hours. on Tuesday, I went to work. I was sitting at my desk, & felt a gush of warm water. I headed to bathroom. & it was a BIG gush. that I couldn't control. like my water breaking. I called my doctors office & they advised they were busy & for me to go to the L&D dept at the hospital & the on call doc would see me. We went, the on call doc did a swab test & said that I didn't have any amniotic fluid, but had no explanation of what hte gush was. The on call doc, was much older & seemed knowledgeable. The on call doc from my office never came over, nor did anything. They did doppler & got a 150 HB and sent me home said everything was okay. So i stayed home the rest of the day & worked from home. ( got a lot done too ).
During the early hours of Wednesday I started having "surges" that weren't relieved by moving around. but not consistent. I got up & got ready for work. Went in, when I got to work, I started writing the surges down. hmmm. 6-9 mins apart. I called the office where I knew MY DOC would be at & they said I could come in at 2:30 pm. I got there at 2pm. The nurse on the phone, said you are just probably having braxton-hicks & not used to them. OKAY! When I finally got to see my doc, he did doppler & HB was 150. hmm same as yesterday, but he did not like the discharges I was having.& I was 2cm dialated & thinned out. He called the Maternal Fetal specialists & had me go to the hospital to get an ultrasound & checked out by MFS. I drove straight there ( still have contractings 6 mins apart ) Hubs met me there. The ultrasound showed no amniotic fluid & drew's HB was now in the 90's. My doc admitted me for observation & to put me on antibiotics, and bed rest under supervision. I got put on monitors to watch my contractions, Hypnobirthing works!! They were so sure I wasn't contracting, cuz I wasn't acting all crazy & hyper when I had contractions.(like the ladies in rooms around me) So after a couple of hours in a small L&D room. we got transferred to a larger/more descreet, out of the way. L&D/Mother Baby room. By this time it was 8pm. we had nothing with us & not eaten. I sent hubs home ( 1.5 hours round trip ) to take his truck home & get a ride back & pick us up toiletries & clothes. He left about 8:30. When i got in the new room, I was monitored for aabout 20mins & then the nurse said. .I will take the monitor off, but I want you to tell me when they are getting closer & more intense. so about 9pm I started writing down the times. Whoa... 3 mins apart. about 9:45 I asked to be checked ( the first time while at the hospital ) to my surprise she said. let me get the doc. I was 4 cm & she said with this early, I wouldn't being going to 10. Everything was getting more pressure... so I asked for some pain relief -mild-mild-mild to take the edge off it. I got some stadol put in my iv. I got really relaxed & called hubs at about 10:15 & said you better get here soon. He got back to teh room at 10:30pm. the doc came to check me & said he'd be back in a few.. to check me.. he came back about 10:55 & nicely he didn't get all garbed up.. he checked me & said.. when you are ready I want you to bear down.. w/ one push Andrew was here. They showed us Andrew right away. The way the doc explained it, is w/ no fluid. he was essentially suffocated in the womb. why he was so blue. The doc also said that the baby smelled foul, so the theories are 1) baby got an infection that caused water to break. 2) water broke, don't know why, & baby got infection from being so long w/ no water.
The doc who delivered us, ordered more antibiotics & informed us we'd probably be here( hospital) for a few days for IV antibiotics. We also had white blood cell counts done & those were high.. so all day today(thursday) i've been on 3 doses of antibiotics.. running simultanious & doses getting higher as I finish each one( they are staggered) I'm also getting Pitocin to help my uterus shrink. since I was not near term, they say my body will not create oxytocin to shrink it naturally.
The staff while I've been hospitalized has been super nice. The night nurse that delivered us. Brought us some brochures beforehand about stillborns & miscarriage & all the decisions we would have to make. Once the baby was born. she took him, cleaned him up, dressed him in a homemade gown & cap. she made footprints for us. She also took pictures of him in his out fit & all his features. fingers, toes, his cute nose. She & the doc encouraged us to hold him, he is in a bassinet in the baby area attached to our room. We both cried, seeing him. he looks much bigger than he felt, but he was all fully perfectlly formed. we willl have genetic testing done, but I assume will come back with nothing as did his brother sammy. It's nice, cuz the nurses caring for me, have all shared with me their stories of their losses. They have all been caring & sympathetic.
Our little Andrew was born(still) last night at 11:01PM he is now in heaven with his brother Samuel & his grandpa watching over them. Andrew was only 21 weeks. he measured 11" long and looked perfect. He looked just like we saw him in our ultrasound pictures just 2 short weeks ago.
Going back 48 hours. on Tuesday, I went to work. I was sitting at my desk, & felt a gush of warm water. I headed to bathroom. & it was a BIG gush. that I couldn't control. like my water breaking. I called my doctors office & they advised they were busy & for me to go to the L&D dept at the hospital & the on call doc would see me. We went, the on call doc did a swab test & said that I didn't have any amniotic fluid, but had no explanation of what hte gush was. The on call doc, was much older & seemed knowledgeable. The on call doc from my office never came over, nor did anything. They did doppler & got a 150 HB and sent me home said everything was okay. So i stayed home the rest of the day & worked from home. ( got a lot done too ).
During the early hours of Wednesday I started having "surges" that weren't relieved by moving around. but not consistent. I got up & got ready for work. Went in, when I got to work, I started writing the surges down. hmmm. 6-9 mins apart. I called the office where I knew MY DOC would be at & they said I could come in at 2:30 pm. I got there at 2pm. The nurse on the phone, said you are just probably having braxton-hicks & not used to them. OKAY! When I finally got to see my doc, he did doppler & HB was 150. hmm same as yesterday, but he did not like the discharges I was having.& I was 2cm dialated & thinned out. He called the Maternal Fetal specialists & had me go to the hospital to get an ultrasound & checked out by MFS. I drove straight there ( still have contractings 6 mins apart ) Hubs met me there. The ultrasound showed no amniotic fluid & drew's HB was now in the 90's. My doc admitted me for observation & to put me on antibiotics, and bed rest under supervision. I got put on monitors to watch my contractions, Hypnobirthing works!! They were so sure I wasn't contracting, cuz I wasn't acting all crazy & hyper when I had contractions.(like the ladies in rooms around me) So after a couple of hours in a small L&D room. we got transferred to a larger/more descreet, out of the way. L&D/Mother Baby room. By this time it was 8pm. we had nothing with us & not eaten. I sent hubs home ( 1.5 hours round trip ) to take his truck home & get a ride back & pick us up toiletries & clothes. He left about 8:30. When i got in the new room, I was monitored for aabout 20mins & then the nurse said. .I will take the monitor off, but I want you to tell me when they are getting closer & more intense. so about 9pm I started writing down the times. Whoa... 3 mins apart. about 9:45 I asked to be checked ( the first time while at the hospital ) to my surprise she said. let me get the doc. I was 4 cm & she said with this early, I wouldn't being going to 10. Everything was getting more pressure... so I asked for some pain relief -mild-mild-mild to take the edge off it. I got some stadol put in my iv. I got really relaxed & called hubs at about 10:15 & said you better get here soon. He got back to teh room at 10:30pm. the doc came to check me & said he'd be back in a few.. to check me.. he came back about 10:55 & nicely he didn't get all garbed up.. he checked me & said.. when you are ready I want you to bear down.. w/ one push Andrew was here. They showed us Andrew right away. The way the doc explained it, is w/ no fluid. he was essentially suffocated in the womb. why he was so blue. The doc also said that the baby smelled foul, so the theories are 1) baby got an infection that caused water to break. 2) water broke, don't know why, & baby got infection from being so long w/ no water.
The doc who delivered us, ordered more antibiotics & informed us we'd probably be here( hospital) for a few days for IV antibiotics. We also had white blood cell counts done & those were high.. so all day today(thursday) i've been on 3 doses of antibiotics.. running simultanious & doses getting higher as I finish each one( they are staggered) I'm also getting Pitocin to help my uterus shrink. since I was not near term, they say my body will not create oxytocin to shrink it naturally.
The staff while I've been hospitalized has been super nice. The night nurse that delivered us. Brought us some brochures beforehand about stillborns & miscarriage & all the decisions we would have to make. Once the baby was born. she took him, cleaned him up, dressed him in a homemade gown & cap. she made footprints for us. She also took pictures of him in his out fit & all his features. fingers, toes, his cute nose. She & the doc encouraged us to hold him, he is in a bassinet in the baby area attached to our room. We both cried, seeing him. he looks much bigger than he felt, but he was all fully perfectlly formed. we willl have genetic testing done, but I assume will come back with nothing as did his brother sammy. It's nice, cuz the nurses caring for me, have all shared with me their stories of their losses. They have all been caring & sympathetic.
Thursday, December 20, 2012
our little peanut
I'm tearing up typing this much, so I'll keep it brief.
We discovered at our appointment today, that our little peanut, has gone to be in heaven. Sometime between 8-9 weeks, is what they estimate, even though "technically" I am 13 weeks 6 days today.
I am scheduling surgery next week, my only option before the holiday would be tomorrow & they don't have any openings.
Thank you all for your prayers..
We discovered at our appointment today, that our little peanut, has gone to be in heaven. Sometime between 8-9 weeks, is what they estimate, even though "technically" I am 13 weeks 6 days today.
I am scheduling surgery next week, my only option before the holiday would be tomorrow & they don't have any openings.
Thank you all for your prayers..
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Frustrated
I really need to learn some relaxation techniques, cuz stress is getting the better of me.
Unfortunately our appraisal came out worse than we expected, so no refiance here. Hubs wants to shell out more money to have another appraisal done, cuz we didn't like the lady who came out. She didn't appear to be experienced. The other thing that doesn't help at all, is we live 2 blocks from a city line. This appraiser, said she couldn't use any houses in the other city.. Well why didn't you tell us that before you took our money. Cuz I would have sent her packing. Our mortgage guy feels so bad, he said check back in 90 days & if we end up being able to then, he'll refund our money that we paid to the bad appraiser.. But because of all the stupid changes in the mortgage industry.. Thanks "no.bma" is what screwed this all up. Every comparable this chick used was "short sale" Hello. that's not the true value of the house, that is a distressed person, desperate to sell, sells their house for.
Soo frustration # 2. I have my 8 week ( and 6 day ) appointment at the doctors office tomorrow. with a Nurse OB ( whatever the heck that is ). So in true fashion from the office, I got a reminder call at 11:15 am confirming my appointment. ..( called me at work) at 1:45 someone from the office called my cell phone. My cell is in my purse during the day. She says, I need you to call back before 4 pm.. or other wise call at 8:30 tomorrow morning. 1st I can't understand her name. 2nd she doesn't leave her extension. 3rd She called back at 3:30pm but didn't leave a message then. Let me say, I had to take the day off tomorrow to make this appointment, to convenience their scheduling.. If she is calling, to cancel, After they already confirmed the appointment I will be royally PISSED. So much to the effect that I might tell them I am leaving the practice. I totally love my doctor, but I've had enough of the B.S. from the office, mind you i'm only 2 months into this. I have to go to the office I don't like for this appoinment.. I can feel my blood pressure is high after these 2 stressing things back to back.. Ugggghhhh !!!
Unfortunately our appraisal came out worse than we expected, so no refiance here. Hubs wants to shell out more money to have another appraisal done, cuz we didn't like the lady who came out. She didn't appear to be experienced. The other thing that doesn't help at all, is we live 2 blocks from a city line. This appraiser, said she couldn't use any houses in the other city.. Well why didn't you tell us that before you took our money. Cuz I would have sent her packing. Our mortgage guy feels so bad, he said check back in 90 days & if we end up being able to then, he'll refund our money that we paid to the bad appraiser.. But because of all the stupid changes in the mortgage industry.. Thanks "no.bma" is what screwed this all up. Every comparable this chick used was "short sale" Hello. that's not the true value of the house, that is a distressed person, desperate to sell, sells their house for.
Soo frustration # 2. I have my 8 week ( and 6 day ) appointment at the doctors office tomorrow. with a Nurse OB ( whatever the heck that is ). So in true fashion from the office, I got a reminder call at 11:15 am confirming my appointment. ..( called me at work) at 1:45 someone from the office called my cell phone. My cell is in my purse during the day. She says, I need you to call back before 4 pm.. or other wise call at 8:30 tomorrow morning. 1st I can't understand her name. 2nd she doesn't leave her extension. 3rd She called back at 3:30pm but didn't leave a message then. Let me say, I had to take the day off tomorrow to make this appointment, to convenience their scheduling.. If she is calling, to cancel, After they already confirmed the appointment I will be royally PISSED. So much to the effect that I might tell them I am leaving the practice. I totally love my doctor, but I've had enough of the B.S. from the office, mind you i'm only 2 months into this. I have to go to the office I don't like for this appoinment.. I can feel my blood pressure is high after these 2 stressing things back to back.. Ugggghhhh !!!
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