Losing Hope.

CD1 --- Nuff said

Past cycle was all wonky again, -- cuz I've had no meds for 2 cycles.


Sent my  OB an email begging him to fill my Femara -- won't know til Tuesday if he does.

I'm a hormonal mess.

If I get my Femara and get to Peak.. oh yeah.. we'll be at the cottage.. sharing tight quarters with many other people.. which makes me think why even bother; cuz I know already, the other half with have performance anxiety with other around.   Now I don't even want to go.. even though this is our only opportunity for anything remotely like a vacation this year.

Feel like I'm at the end of my TTC rope. This is the first summer in 3 years that I haven't been on restrictions.. It's been nice to feel okay & to be able to participate; but yet I feel miserable..

This week will be extra hard for some other reasons.. that I can't go into here, so if you can just say a prayer.


Tried a new GF Hard Cider-- don't like it at all, but don't want to waste a 6 pack.