hard time -TMI

Today is CD1.. I knew it was coming, not because I had any signs, because I knew the chart did not receive any "I" 's at the right time( well let's be honest, not at all this chart) , partly due to I was only cleared to "I" At the beginning of it, partly due to SNOW ( See previous post, about SNOW ), partly due to me not understanding my husband.  I don't get what his "issue" is lately. I get it he owns a business, it can be stressful. I finally bared it all yesterday.. Well PMS helped me be brutally honest. I said put on your big boy pants, suck it up & go to the doctor. He refuses to admit "anything" is wrong w/ him.  I said please help me understand why you are not in the mood. or "can't " still he can't communicate what the issue is. It's very frustrating to me. It's about this time in my cycle when not on meds, that I get to the point, where I am questioning myself, WHY am I  putting myself thru this. Just this once, I would like him to step & have to take a needle poke, or one of what seems like a 100 pills a day, or some uncomfortable exam.

Don't let me get into the agony of Valentines Day. .I just seems stressing now.  We are expecting a snow storm, so I don't expect much.

Just wish I hadn't given up Dairy & Wheat for lent, cuz I could cause some damage in the kitchen if he was gone. Let's not get into the fact ,that I asked him, if he could give up dairy OR wheat w/ me for Lent, so he could support me..  ( and our TTC efforts ) the reaction, was kinda like, I asked him to cut off his leg or something. I did make a list for our fridge of my banned items, so he gets it.. cuz last time I was doing the diet, he would say, how about pizza 2nite..  he wouldn't get the harm in any of the ingredients.

I just keep repeating, Love is Patient, Love is Kind. .....