Prepared

I think  I am prepared to return to work tomorrow.

I know that someone will say something that will make me want to cry, and I probably will.

I know that someone will put their foot in their mouth more than once.

I know that if my son were here, I would still be all cozied up in the house, I would  not be returning to work in a snow storm.

I know there is a big box of Kleenex on my desk.

I know I have to return to work for the health insurance.

I know I have to return to pay for all the medical bills we've endured.

I know I have to return to have a savings built for future TTC endeavors.

I know it will not be easy.

I know I will be watching the clock, for lunch, then for end of the day.

I know I can make it through the day.

I know when I come home, my husband will have a glass of something waiting for me and a giant hug.

I know I won't accomplish much at work tomorrow. 

I know being gone for six weeks, seems like an eternity to some, to me it seems just like yesterday.

I know I will have strength to get through the day, I will have someone walking along side me all day, to help me through it.


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I've had some sweet co-workers e-mailing me asking me if I'm ready to come back.. so my answer is I need to get back to some sort of normal. For me that is work.  Do I want to come back, not really, but I know I have to.

In the last week, my biggest preparation exercise for returning to work, has been getting up at the time I would normally need to get up, getting dressed like I am going to work, and going to daily mass. When I return from daily mass, I have breakfast, and instead of changing out of the work clothes into something comfy, I have been staying dressed in work clothes. ( I have to dress for work, no jeans, no leggings, no sweats). This has been a great help in mentally preparing me for the days ahead. The one reason, our office has never changed to casual work environment, they are firm believers that when you are dressed up, you feel and work differently. After doing this for a good week at home, I can say I believe it. My attitude is completely different.